DOPEamine Christian A. Rivera

Show Notes:
• Exploring the concepts of projections (unconscious agency) and introjections (unconscious receptivity) from the Stages model
• Understanding the split ego state and how it relates to childhood development and trauma  
• Recognizing unhealthy patterns of being more of a "taker" than a "giver" in relationships and life
• Working on reciprocity, boundaries, and being more altruistic by offering value without expectation
The Unconscious Dance of Projections and Introjections
I recently came across a fascinating idea - that projections are an unconscious use of agency, while introjections are an unconscious form of receptivity. This stems from my recent dive into the Stages model and the three forms of shadow identified by Kim Barta: projections, introjections, and split ego states.
Projections are qualities about ourselves that we place onto others, often showing up as judgments. Introjections are taking on qualities, feelings, or traits that aren't truly ours. A split ego state occurs when a childhood trauma causes part of our psyche to become walled off or unconsciously carried into later stages of development.
The idea of projections being "unconscious agency" is striking. Agency implies self-authored action and creativity, but when it's unconscious, we aren't realizing the impact of our behaviors. The world then reflects that unconsciousness back to us through triggers and reactions we project onto others.
Introjections, being "unconscious receptivity," represent the flip side. We're taking in messages, media, or even trauma without realizing how it permeates our psychology and behavioral patterns. The 1.0 stage of pure receptivity in infancy is often where introjections begin.
For me personally, I'm seeing how much I've operated from an unconscious drive to "take" rather than give - seeking friendship, intimacy, or even business in manipulative ways to get my wants met. It links back to developmental lacks around boundaries, reciprocity, and valuing myself enough to just offer value without expectation.
The 2.0 stage is all about learning boundaries, negotiating wants, and developing that critical theory of mind and social perspective-taking. If we get stuck in an earlier stage or experience a "shadow crash," we can react from that younger, more selfishly motivated ego state.
My work now is noticing those taking/manipulative tendencies, setting healthier boundaries, and figuring out how to genuinely give and be altruistic - through content, skills, presence, and service to others. Not from a depleted place, but from truly valuing what I have to offer the world.
It's an insightful model for doing powerful inner work. If any of these concepts resonate, I invite you to explore the Stages model further or leave me a comment with questions. I'll do my best to offer more generous perspectives as I muddle through these realizations myself.


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This episode is a difficult realization manifest in a long winding investigation into not just a wounding but an uncheck node in my internal system. Using the STAGES model created by Kim Barta and Terri O’Fallen I’ve been able to pinpoint where I need some important work, and how I’ve been undermining myself, misusing my intelligence, and not setting proper boundaries for myself. This episode shares that process and some real-time realizations about my impact on others and how this young childhood trauma has impacted my development into today.
Show Notes:
Introduction:
* Christian Rivera shares insights from his personal journey of self-discovery and growth, drawing from Gene Key 50 and other developmental models.
Main Points:
* Body as Beloved Pet:
* Rivera likens the body to a cherished pet, emphasizing the importance of nurturing and loving it for optimal health and happiness.
* Exploring Personal Development:
* Reflecting on personal growth, Rivera delves into the discovery of internal corruption and its impact on development.
* Stages Model and Perspective:
* Rivera discusses the Stages model, which applies vertical models of human development to a more relatable perspective of first, second, and third-person viewpoints.
* Perspective Evolution:
* Expanding on the Stages model, Rivera explores higher perspectives, highlighting the process of unraveling constructs and expanding worldviews.
* Releasing Victim Identity:
* Rivera shares his journey of releasing the victim identity, delving into the complexities of personal narratives and their influence on behavior.
* Ego States and Shadow Work:
* Exploring ego states and shadow work, Rivera discusses how childhood experiences can shape behaviors and perceptions, leading to the development of corrupted patterns.
* Gene Key 50:
* Rivera relates his journey to Gene Key 50, emphasizing the importance of rooting out corrupted programs and achieving equilibrium for personal growth.
* Embracing Equilibrium:
* Rivera discusses the significance of maintaining inner equilibrium amidst life's challenges, highlighting the power of gratitude and self-reflection in fostering harmony.
* Boundaries and Relationships:
* Rivera reflects on the importance of setting boundaries and fostering harmonious relationships, acknowledging the need for balance between giving and receiving.
* Moving Forward:
* Rivera concludes by expressing gratitude for the listener's support and shares his commitment to continued growth and self-discovery.
Conclusion:
* Rivera expresses gratitude for the listener's engagement and support, emphasizing the ongoing journey of self-improvement and growth.
Support Information:
* Rivera encourages listeners to subscribe to his Substack and consider supporting his work through Patreon to facilitate ongoing content creation and personal development exploration.
Closing Remarks:
* Rivera extends love and gratitude to the audience, encouraging them to embrace gratitude and self-reflection in their own journeys.


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I’m testing Wednesday Wisdom as a series of thought meditations to calm the mind from various angles to focus on presence and breath. If you enjoy this series let me know in the comments below. You can also now book a support session with me if you need more.
I’ve been uncovering a Saviorism within myself. I need to prove myself disguised as confident and all-knowing of what people need to be doing with their lives. Lately, I’ve seen that this is an abrasive attempt to prove my value as a human by overdoing, overstepping, and forcing others who aren’t prepared to grow into a growth path, which usually only halts their natural growth. Forcing extra water on a plant because it needs to grow faster will only drown it. So, I’m learning to back off, not force my contribution, and put emphasis on both acceptance of presence with everything being perfect as it is and to also support the expansion of the light of human consciousness with my work as a garden to tend to as opposed to a belief to peddle.
In my own exploration and self-discovery, I've come to realize that the role I envisioned for myself—as the omnipotent savior of everyone around me—may not be the path meant for me. Instead, what has emerged from my reflections and meditations is a deeper understanding that my true role is more akin to a humble steward or guide, not just for others, but for my own journey as well.
This journey began with a well-intentioned desire to fix, save, and uplift every soul I encountered. I saw myself as the architect of change, the only one who held the wisdom to guide those lost back to shore. This mindset, noble in its aim, often led me to overextend, to overstep, and, paradoxically, to stunt the very growth I aimed to foster in others.
Through my meditation, I've come to see that the essence of my contribution is not found in grandiose acts of salvation but in the quiet, steady support and acceptance of each person's unique path. Like a gardener tending to their plot, I've learned the importance of allowing each plant to grow at its own pace, understanding that each requires different amounts of sunlight, water, and care. This realization has shown me the beauty of stepping back, of supporting rather than forcing growth.
Transitioning from a savior to a steward or coach has been liberating. It has allowed me to shed the burdens of proving my worth through the act of saving and to embrace a more sustainable, fulfilling way of contributing to the world. By focusing on my own growth and self-discovery, I inadvertently create a space where others feel empowered to explore, grow, and shine in their own right.
The mantra I shared, "You don't need to save the world. You do not need to save anyone. You do not need to do anything to prove your worth," is a powerful affirmation that has guided me through this transition. It's a reminder to embrace my inherent worth, understanding that my value does not depend on my ability to rescue others but on my capacity to love, support, and be present with them on their journey.
This path of unburdening has underscored the importance of being my own savior, healer, and coach. By setting boundaries, honoring my needs, and nurturing my growth, I lay the groundwork for genuine, impactful contributions to the lives of those around me. It's in this space of self-love and acceptance that I can truly contribute from a place of abundance rather than obligation.
As I navigate the complexities of life, I hold onto the essence of my meditation: my role is not to bear the weight of the world on my shoulders but to walk alongside others, sharing the load, offering support, and celebrating the unique journey each of us is on. In doing so, I not only enrich my own life but also contribute to a world where growth, acceptance, and presence are valued above all else. This shift from savior to steward, from fixer to supporter, is not just a personal evolution but a testament to the power of presence, acceptance, a

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Welcome, thinkers and wanderers, to a journey of self-discovery and transformation with your guide, Christian Rivera. Today, we delve into the paradox of victimhood and its potential to either chain us to the past or propel us toward personal triumph. Strap in for an exploration of survival instincts, psychological resilience, and the path to self-sovereignty.
The Paradox of Victimhood
Victimhood, while inherently linked to suffering, carries an unexpected power—the power to transcend. Yet, as we navigate from physical survival to psychological battles, the real challenge emerges: not allowing our stories of victimhood to define us but instead using them as stepping stones to empowerment and creation.
Journey Through Psychological Trauma
Christian shares his personal voyage through the dark waters of psychological trauma, a path marked by the redefinition of emotional boundaries and the relentless pursuit of self-authorship. This narrative sheds light on the transformative journey from victimhood to agency, underscored by the vital role of support systems.
The Power of Support and Adaptation
In the face of indifference, the significance of support—be it from a partner, a coach, or a community—cannot be overstated. Christian highlights the shift from seeking external accommodations to fostering personal adaptation, emphasizing the role of technology and tools in overcoming challenges like dyslexia and ADHD.
The Drama Triangle: A Philosophical Exploration
Venturing into the drama triangle, we examine the roles of victim, hero, and villain within co-dependent dynamics. This exploration reveals the potential for narrative change, encouraging us to step out of predefined roles and embrace the responsibility of crafting our destinies.
Emotional Boundaries and Savior Complexes
Christian offers a candid reflection on the savior complex and the importance of establishing emotional boundaries. This discussion serves as a reminder of the perils of attempting to 'fix' the emotional turmoil of others and the importance of focusing on our responses and choices.
Discipline and Surrender: The Essence of Growth
The episode concludes with a meditation on the balance between discipline and surrender, emphasizing the importance of self-care and the acceptance of flow and ease. This balance avoids the extremes of hyper-vigilance and submission, guiding us towards personal growth.
A Call to Self-Sovereignty
Christian leaves us with a call to action: to examine our relationship with victimhood and actively pursue self-sovereignty and agency. This invitation encourages engagement in personal growth work, transforming us from passive recipients of life's challenges to active creators of our future.
Join us on this philosophical journey at dopamine.substack.com, where we continue to explore mental health, spirituality, and the quest for transformation. Share your thoughts and experiences on navigating victimhood and claiming your power. Until next time, embrace the choices you make and the paths you dare to walk, for they shape your destiny.


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What makes you adaptable? The podcast episode is a wonderful compliment to this prompt, so give it a listen before you journal to see what comes out for you. Also, consider what might hinder your adaptability and what might be in your way. Take 5 minutes to journal unfiltered and share your insights in the comments below!
Episode Summary: In this insightful episode of DOPEamine, Christian Rivera delves into the concept of adaptability through the evolution of whales, inspired by a PBS Nova documentary. This scientific marvel becomes a metaphor for human adaptability, exploring how we, unlike our animal counterparts, use intelligence and innovation to navigate our environment and challenges.
Key Points Discussed:
* Discovery of Whale Bones in the Desert: The episode kicks off with a fascinating look at the PBS Nova documentary's findings in the Northern Sahara, challenging our perceptions of evolution and adaptability.
* Human Adaptability Versus Genetic Evolution: Christian distinguishes between slow genetic evolution and the rapid adaptability humans achieve through technology, social structures, and personal growth.
* Technology as a Tool for Adaptation: The conversation explores how advancements, especially in AI, are extending our ability to adapt, potentially transforming everything from agriculture to space colonization.
* Exploring Personal and Societal Adaptability: The episode encourages listeners to reflect on adaptability in their lives, considering how societal pressures and personal challenges impact our ability to adapt and grow.
* Journal Prompts for Self-Reflection: Listeners are invited to engage with thought-provoking journal prompts on dopeamine.substack.com, designed to inspire self-reflection on adaptability and change.
Call to Action:
* Join the DOPEamine Community: Engage with like-minded individuals on dopeamine.substack.com, where you can share insights, stories, and participate in journal prompts focused on adaptability, growth, and personal evolution.
* Become an Insight Navigator: Dive deeper into your journey of adaptability by becoming a premium subscriber, gaining access to daily prompts and fostering high-quality discussions on personal and societal transformation.
Closing Remarks: Christian concludes the episode with an invitation for listeners to contribute to the conversation through comments, questions, and shared experiences. He emphasizes the role of community in understanding and navigating the complexities of adaptability in today's world.
Next Steps: Listeners are encouraged to reflect on their own paths of adaptability, join the DOPEamine community on Substack, and anticipate future episodes that will further explore the intricate dance between personal growth, societal challenges, and the vast potential of human innovation.
Here’s my entry:
After I recorded this episode I immediately realized some of my own hubris in thinking about animal intelligence and adaptation. It’s not as if humans are the only creatures capable of molding and mapping out environment or being nomadic but it does seem like we put a lot of extra emphasis on it and are quite sensitive to environmental changes, so there’s more at stake to not change things so harshly. Though I do think we underestimate our ability to adapt.
I don’t feel like much in my life is very adaptable at the moment if I’m overfocusing on income and navigating life through financial means. But when I think socially and intellectually, we have a lot of ability to adapt and wealth. We have friends all over the world, both Molly and I are quite intelligent and flexible with humans and mental models. I feel myself personally getting far less triggered by people, so that makes me more adaptable to all kinds of people and circumstances I can adapt to. Social adaptation is a major aspect of being adaptable and I suspect my personal understandings of spiral dynamics, personality types, etc. have been massively helpeful in feeling like I

In today's episode of DOPEamine, Christian Rivera dives deep into the intricate dance between seeking purpose and the continuous effort to balance discipline with surrender. Purpose, as Christian elaborates, is an ever-evolving quest that shapes our existence, guiding us through the complexities of life.
The Quest for PurposeChristian begins by pondering the nature of purpose, a question that haunts many of us. Is purpose found in emotion, thought processes, belief systems, or is it something else entirely? The journey towards understanding purpose often leads us to explore the meaning of life itself. Whether you adopt a nihilistic view or believe in a more defined meaning, Christian argues that finding purpose is possible and necessary, even in a seemingly purposeless existence.
Impact and PurposeA significant insight from the episode is the relationship between impact and purpose. Christian shares a personal reframe around the concept of impact, noting that the lack of impact can lead to burnout. Impact doesn't necessarily mean changing the world on a grand scale but involves engaging in actions that produce feedback, contributing to a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment.
The Role of DisciplineDiscipline, according to Christian, is not about rigid routines or strict adherence to a particular lifestyle. Instead, it's about finding and maintaining rhythms and rituals that nurture our bodies and souls. It's about showing up in whatever way aligns with our individual experiences and needs.
Embracing SurrenderSurrender, on the other hand, is about trusting the flow of life and the systems we navigate. It's not about giving up control but about learning to navigate the energies, environments, and relationships that shape our experiences. This surrender involves a trust in the ecosystem of human connections that support us in fulfilling our purpose.
Finding the BalanceThe episode culminates in a discussion on finding the balance between discipline and surrender — a delicate act that requires continuous adjustment and awareness. This balance is crucial for navigating the complexities of life without losing sight of our purpose or succumbing to burnout.
Join the Conversation on SubstackFor those seeking to explore these themes further, Christian invites listeners to join his Substack community. Premium subscribers will receive daily journal prompts to aid in their personal exploration of purpose, discipline, and surrender, while free subscribers will have weekly access.
Check out DOPEamine on substack for insightful prompts, discussions, and a space to share your journey towards finding balance and purpose in life. Whether it's through comments, sharing your thoughts on flow, or discussing what brings you a sense of purpose, the DOPEamine community is a place for growth and connection.
Remember: Finding purpose is not a solitary journey. By engaging with the community, reflecting through journaling, and participating in the ongoing conversation, we can all navigate the complexities of life with a bit more grace and understanding. Join us on DOPEamine as we explore these themes together, and let's support each other in our individual and collective quests for purpose.


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